The Unknown Chapter

We hail a new year, which invites new beginnings, yet we fear the repercussions of change. We fear the repercussions because we believe we will be condemned for discovering the unknown. Yet we must be ever mindful, that our movements, uncomfortable for others to view, are intended to benefit our families and ourselves. We may feel, we may never reach our destined path, but we can not sit idle in curiosity for fear of the unknown.

Recently, I ended a chapter of my life which I had felt conflicted emotionally for two years. For two years, I questioned my abilities to maintain the professional level of service I knew I was capable of demonstrating, versus the rapid growth of my family and the demands that this entailed. For two years, I poured my heart out to family members across the seas, to friends I knew I could trust, with the torment that I inhibited, all in favour of others. For two years, I compromised my ability to do all and be all for everyone else, leaving my own desires unfulfilled. I created financial distress, I undoubtedly sacrificed a lot in pursuit to continue facilitating a service. This service, a passion I had invested in for decades, yet I still felt torn. I felt displaced and uncertain. This uncertainty had me questioning my passion, a passion which still burns bright, but unfortunately the desire to facilitate a business myself, well that flame has diminished significantly.

Many late nights, many discussions with family and extremely supportive friends, offered me the ability to make an informed decision. Instead of placing others before the needs of my own, something needed to give. I could no longer continue to operate at a loss, a loss of income, a loss of ability to support my home and those beautiful beings inside of the home that needed their mother, their wife. I needed to support myself, emotionally and make physical changes to adapt to this new unknown chapter.

I encourage others to do the same. Those who are unable to stand tall alongside you as you navigate through this ever-changing world, as you grow and develop daily, allow them to travel on a separate path. You will discover your cheerleaders in this world, those that raise you up, those that remain positive through your trials and tribulations, and those that you feel secure in investing your precious heart and soul to. We are constantly reminding others that life is short, life is precious, live your life to the fullest, and yet we dismiss heeding our own advice. There will always be those who strive to bring you down. Negativity and toxic opinions will forever seek to destroy, but this can only succeed if you allow them to pierce your barrier of positivity.

Welcome change, except it, grow from within, for as humans we have an innate desire to progress. Transform your fear of travelling the unknown into an excitement of discovering a new self. So here I go, with the support of many, embarking on my new unknown chapter and grasping each day as it comes.